One of the patients
Hello, I'm Liyn from Japan.
I know schizophrenia can cause various symptoms, so I can't represent it all even though I'm one of the patients of this mental disorder.
However, I'm going to try to explain my experience with schizophrenia. I think this article can help you find some new things about the desease.
First, am I okey now? Am I logical enough to explain my experience to a lot of readers living around the world?
I believe I am okey now because my auditory hallucination is almost relieved by LAI which is the injection treatment to control dopamine.
To be honest, LAI is not completely eliminating the symptons I'm suffering from while I can say the injection treatment is effective.
Symptons I have
The symptoms I have is mainly the auditory hallucination. In addition, I tend to feel that someone around me, for example on the train, is talking about me.
This is really stressful. In contrast, this is addictive too, I can say. why?
This is because my auditory hallucination is not always bad words. I hear good responses to my thoughts and actions too. Of course, they are not real ones.
I heard good and bad responses to me in a Karaoke room for the first time about 7 years ago.
I was not good at singing Karaoke, so I tried hard to practice it at that time.
This might be stressful enough for me to cause the desease. Simply to say, I got tired after the stressful and meaningless efforts I put on myself.
At the same time, singing is the action for someone hearing it. This means I need to use my ears more sensitively.
I think it was bad for my desease. I suffered from someone's eyes and ears that was not existing in reality.
To the hospital
Unfortunately, I was brought to the hospital by the police because I was too confused to pay the train fee.
At that time, I thought like "I'm the top of Japan" or "That girl I loved when I'm a high school student will help me".
That kind of thought was not reasonable but supplied odd energy to me in order to survive against the situation I was facing.
I didn't understand what schizophrenia that I have is like. Moreover, I suspected that I am a patient of it.
My opptimism concluded that I'm going to be okey someday while schizophrenia is the desease that I have to live with toword the end of my life.
I rejected to take a medicine.
It followed that I got hospitalized again in january, 2024.
Day care programs
Before I got hospitalized again, I felt strong pain with my feets when I was walking outside.
In addition, I was too tired because of seven years of meaningless effort for singing better!
However, 3 months of hospital life relieved my pain and stress mostly.
After all, enough rest, necessary medicine and healthy conversation were the key to control my desease.
I'm now attending day care programs for the patients of mental disorder.
Surprisingly, I got to experiense singing in front of a lot of patients in Karaoke program or as a vocal of day-care-band!
I really thank them because of their real good response to my singing. It helps me to keep healty motivation to live my real life.
Recent life
This summer in Japan is really hot to live confortably.
However, I'm now enjoying some new experiences with my friends in the same day care facility.
I started to practice to play the guitar and drums because the facility has a music room to play them.
In the room, you can also sing Karaoke with mic while listening to musics made for Karaoke on Youtube.
I love singing now, but I learned to enjoy it in moderation.
I mentioned what all I need is now above ―enough rest, necessary medicine and healthy conversation.
